从陆家嘴到中山医院的路其实没多长！

保险论坛 发表于 2018-11-13 09:16:50

从陆家嘴到中山医院的路其实没多长！

<p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">本文转自公众号：一只柱柱柱柱子哥 <p style="max-width: 100%; min-height: 1em;" helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">原题目：《从陆家嘴到中山医院的路其实没多长！魔都28岁金融女突然患癌写下的人生感悟》<p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p data-mpa-powered-by="yiban.io" style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;widows:="" 1;line-height:="" 1.75em;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">导读：本文作者得了和李开复一样的病（<strong style="max-width: 100%;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;text-indent:="" 34px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">滤泡型淋巴瘤4期）。说实话，李开复得这个病虽然遗憾，但不让人意外，毕竟50多岁，知天命之年了。可是这个姑娘才28岁，毕业后就职于上海某金融机构，美好的人生才刚刚开始，这实在让人难以接受。<p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;line-height:="" 27.2px;widows:="" 1;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;widows:="" 1;line-height:="" 1.75em;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">现在得癌的年龄真是越来越早了，90后们都像疯了一样透支自己，加上糟糕的大环境，已经埋下了不少隐患。要知道，你生病了公司立马就能找到人来替代你，而你的家人却不行。从陆家嘴到中山医院的路，其实没多远。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;widows:="" 1;line-height:="" 1.75em;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;widows:="" 1;line-height:="" 1.75em;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">她其实很不想提笔写自己的事情，可是这两天一直刷到朋友圈的垃圾鸡汤，什么“扛过人生艰难，靠的是不着急、不害怕、不要脸”，感到对她人生遇到的真正艰难来说，太不具体，太无用了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;widows:="" 1;line-height:="" 1.75em;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;widows:="" 1;line-height:="" 1.75em;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">于是她这才把自己从体检开始的故事写成了长文，并且总结成了经验和思维导图发出来。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;widows:="" 1;line-height:="" 1.75em;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;widows:="" 1;line-height:="" 1.75em;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">如果这个国家，这个城市，有和她一样患有亚型非霍奇金淋巴瘤、已经骨髓侵犯累及脏器、伴有其他免疫力缺陷疾病的人，在遇到这样的人生艰难时，有份具体的东西可以看，不要慌，不要怕，那这份指南就帮到了人。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;line-height:="" 27.2px;widows:="" 1;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;font-variant-numeric:="" normal;font-variant-east-asian:="" normal;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;line-height:="" 27.2px;widows:="" 1;text-align:="" center;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-ratio="0.6619273301737757" data-s="300,640" data-type="png" data-w="633" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_png%2FkgzKbGj0eeLCRSLJ7Cibz5r74Y1RJ5TqkTbtW0LpVhiaRIuo7dpK0umTXgOugibUds61OllJ6Bp4TlR6WCZ9ibz8icA%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Dpng" style="user-select: none;box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;visibility: visible !important;width: 371px !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">以下为正文： <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">Hello大家好，我是柱柱哥，以及一个正在接受Rchop方案化疗的滤泡型淋巴瘤4期病人。 <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">趁化疗后手还有10%有知觉、趁发烧之余还能硬撑着起来码字，自诩为硬核知识型美少女的我，想把过去半个月的经历和我的每一步考虑、计划纪录下来，哪怕我的读者只是一个刚好需要的人。 <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我将自己应对患病和治疗的两周里准备的计划、执行的方案以思维导图的方式分为四部分呈现，希望可以成为一份完整的可操作性强的指南。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" 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!important;visibility: visible !important;width: 677px !important;"><p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">一、确诊<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">九月中下旬，公司组织体检。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我就是话多，去和体检医生闲聊，医生触及我的甲状腺结节，然后告诉我我的淋巴结肿大，让我去查下淋巴结。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我笑说，“怎么可能，真有什么毛病我已经早就挂了吧”。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">此时我对淋巴系统疾病初步印象是《滚蛋吧肿瘤君》和李开复。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">医生很认真的说“我有个朋友就是你这样的淋巴结肿大，然后查出来是发展比较慢的淋巴瘤亚型”，于是硬给我安排了去门诊再开别的检查。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">后面的半个多月，我工作抽空溜出去做了增强CT、淋巴结活检，一直觉得自己没屁事，毕竟概率低到百万分之一的级别。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">然后在10月17日傍晚，收到医生帮我提前看到的病理结果：<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">“滤泡型淋巴瘤2级”。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-ratio="0.4173387096774194" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="992" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrH7SMKJH3SibhEoXdtWp2bw0b9npxDmTeBqtCmQFVVRJgibb7waQgIlSA%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 342px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">彼时彼刻还在温州出差的我，坐在企业的会议室里，旁边是同事，还吃着麻辣香锅味的饼干和人聊着天。 <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">然后大脑空白了一下子，又一下子。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">打开丁香医生了解了病症的基本常识后，擦干手走到走廊上个厕所，失去时间感，好像是飘着过了十分钟。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">完，全，懵，逼。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我特么是韩剧女主角么？What?真的假的？<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">因为太懵逼了，不知道该和谁说以及该不该哭了，回到会议室收好东西，和同事回酒店入住。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">期间微信告知了直系领导可能会有工作安排变化，告知了老公初步的结果。6点半回到酒店房间，虚汗出了一身，头重脚轻恍恍惚惚。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">没有和同事去吃饭，大众点评了酒店附近的火锅，躺在床上刷点评转移注意力，不想让自己去想这件事。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">大概大脑放空了半小时，衣服不知道怎么穿好了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">打车去吃德庄火锅，太恍神了，被酒店旋转门夹住了，包带断了，肩膀失去疼痛感，我愣愣的站在还在旋转的半扇门里，想骂什么，还没来得及说什么，玻璃就呼到脸上了，一秒钟感觉自己就要哇声大哭了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">什么事嘛，被旋转门胖揍一顿，生活为什么要这么对我。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">一个人在店里点好火锅，边煮油条边想怎么办，在脑子里任由一二三一起冒出来，像积木一样一块块堆起来，又咕咚一下倒了，又堆。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">夹着毛肚七上八下，打着拍子想起老唐的脸，他会怎么样，我们要不现在离婚吧，我不想拖累别人的人生。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">将菠菜丢进白汤，看它一点点沉下去，感觉像自己的人生。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">勺子里的牛肉掉进红汤深处，就像父母的人生一样，28年的期盼在终于可以养儿防老的一刻，失去控制。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-croporisrc="https://mmbiz.qpic.cn/mmbiz_jpg/kgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrUjAC3Do5vrJeTub354EgmicKenf9I7IQPGGwfACFv10CcJMGVbSOlRw/0?wx_fmt=jpeg" data-cropx1="110.10752688172042" data-cropx2="1218.0645161290322" data-cropy1="0" data-cropy2="665.2329749103942" data-ratio="0.5992779783393501" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="1108" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrToBdXfQMzEbcJwHwBydMUJ7Q6c43nlyacRQyaanYmPzh3PxsWpbTlA%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 298px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">这场景化的、有非常具体的情景的想象，把我惊呆了，在懵逼的上面一个层次，我居然在想这些事情。我的反应是，卧槽，这样不行，不行不行。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">既然不行，那要怎样。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">吃好饭在路边等车的时候，我想，不能这么乱了，要想办法控制局面。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我控制局面的方式就是，收集信息整理成表格，as I always do。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">回到酒店后洗漱好，下载淋巴瘤的病友社区app，脑子里列出来一定要明天解决掉的事情：和老公谈离婚、告诉父母、回上海。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">鉴于我奇葩的人生观，我一直坚定认为自己患绝症了是不太会治疗的，人都是得癌症死的，或早或晚，到我了就是到我了，我人财两空痛苦万分治疗了也是到我了，我们都会像《云图》里的侍女一样，服务期满后集中被杀死化成蛋白质。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我想了一整晚，这是什么病，要不要治，值不值得治，还在老家放疗的父母怎么办，公司不要我了怎么办。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">十一点的时候想给我妈打电话告诉她，想她肯定接受不了，忍住眼泪爬起来和老公打电话，安慰他不要担心，摒住了没有流露情绪。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">10月18日早上七点半起来洗漱化妆好，在酒店窗边的阳光里录了两个小视频，30s的给父母告知情况＋安慰＋承诺保证他们的生活，10s的存起来打算告诉好朋友。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">下楼吃早饭的时候开始考虑钱的问题，觉得很头大，花呗和白条怎么还都还伤脑筋的人现在居然YY以后的三线治疗方案是自己相对了解的Car-T了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">和同事碰头，他说我脸白的不行，是不是不舒服，我有那么一瞬间想告诉他我生病了，欲言又止。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">回房间处理了一小时工作，和同事一起去火车站去台州出差了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">上午忙完工作我们去吃了海鲜排挡，路上很远，我一边处理工作，一边告知了我需要寻求帮助的同事，他帮我查了一些国内外学术资料。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">下午从台州回上海，路上有点伤感的跟同事说，以后这个项目会有其他同事同你一起。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">四个小时的火车上，我开始整理所有保险，整理保单核心信息、刷App看能不能在线理赔，做好表格发给老公。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">表格包括保险公司、联系方式、投保时间、保障范围、理赔方式、资料清单准备等，让老公同步在医院帮我取病理报告复印病历准备。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-ratio="0.5228494623655914" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="744" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FriaNFptUf08DPEiae0mTsQlibYSf1k7zibl2AjnDricQXrzAQJDtlcSDswIw%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 357px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我的想法是，一定要标准化到信息完善，我挂了他也能够独自搞懂。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">傍晚到上海，从虹桥火车站曹操去中山医院，路上一直听司机讲中山医院如何救了他们家两条命，以及多么的花钱如流水。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">老唐在医学院路门诊大楼路口等我，我下车拎着两个包都快虚脱了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我坐在医院旁边的罗森店里，加热了炒年糕和丸子吃，隔着窗户，看着老唐抽着烟背对着我的背影，心疼的差点哭了，真的是差点，因为太心疼他了所以忍住没哭。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我一想到他和我在一起的这些年都没有过好的日子，我是学生妹的时候他手把手教傻白甜，我工作了他帮我照顾家里父母，两个人到了五年之痒的时候，把离婚挂在嘴边，从前说不出口的伤人都变得随随便便，现如今，又要将他带入这样的局面。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">想到如果我挂了，他就要四十岁了回到相亲市场，孑然一人面对别人的定价和挑拣，也再难有人像我能容忍他的脾气，真是越想越难过，咽一口食物咽一百口眼泪，心口痛得像是被揉碎了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">事实证明，一个女人因为心疼老公可以硬核到不行。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">开车回家的路上我们推心置腹的说了些体己话。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">老唐不同意离婚，接受以后没有孩子。简单的结论和决策后面，我们以成年人的方式，抛开感情，讲清楚了现有的选择和利弊。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">一个小时的车程里，我谈及过往种种，谈及父母老无所依，实在忍不住失声痛哭，老唐强咽下哽咽，和我说“只要人活着，就还有办法”。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我们没有拥抱痛哭，都没有握下手什么的，他也没有承诺爱我表露真心，我们就像平时冷言冷语吵架一样，冷静的分析了局面和解决办法。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">大概人和人之间最深的羁绊就是这样冷静和简明吧，从没说过爱我，却一定要与我共担生死。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">回到家，我收拾东西，他告知公婆我的情况（一万字不表），我开始整理好情绪，有条理的思考下面的问题。<p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">二、矫情无用，动手解决<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">10月19日周五正常上班，摒住胡思乱想，一边处理工作一边准备保险赔付、联系公司人力、联系保险公司。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">鉴于这次生病真的太突然了，以及我实在是个过分贫穷的金融民工（这是重点），缺钱几乎打败了我。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我了解下来，滤泡淋巴瘤治疗基本是参照指南标准化方案，一线治疗自费低配节省方案的话10万左右搞定（我没用脂质体），二线治疗配合进口药自费药月度花费就上4万。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">如果发生转化和短期复发，两年内经济压力会非常大。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" 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!important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">了解了疾病的原理和发展必经路径后，我决定去没那么热门的医院，用最节省的一线治疗方案，如果真的转化成高度侵袭性弥漫大B淋巴瘤的话争取去其他的药物试验做小白鼠搏一下。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">没得选就保守维持，活过两年把一切安排好就够。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">考虑治疗，就要考虑治疗地点，上海的瑞金医院、肿瘤医院、第一人民医院无疑热门，但是离家里都太远了，公婆照顾我不方便，老唐接送我也辛苦。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">何况我的病会需要长期的投入，所以一定要方便、可持续、相对熟悉，于是我决定再去中山医院。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">刷完病友社区所有的文章和问答后，我觉得我需要给自己做最重要的心理建设：失去头发。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-croporisrc="https://mmbiz.qpic.cn/mmbiz_jpg/kgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrlgAB8VC26rZibt7BXtCiarwgY1p8bXIwEqvGesdACOkj8l5kY4ZfKKrQ/0?wx_fmt=jpeg" data-cropx1="0" data-cropx2="576.6594982078853" data-cropy1="0" data-cropy2="482.7240143369175" data-ratio="0.8368055555555556" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="576" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrWgpBtPtIqVm48icLUVML243ibge7NIjyia6Zicz5N2UeYNGf7D4Vh0vZ2Q%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 335px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">头发是我人生中比工作还重要的事，甚至是我感到自己在控制生活的唯一要素，每周二周四周日晚上八点雷打不动的去店里吹个好看的大波浪是我记住日期和周几的方式。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">九年如一日的爱护及腰长发简直是我整个青春，而我即将用的方案必然会掉光头发，这个打击程度比生病可能失去生命本身更让我惊恐。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">微信上约了姐妹周末美甲和洗头，再去五角场试试假发。悲伤的我食不下咽。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">然而老唐凶我说，头发重要命重要。头发没了可以买五千块的假发，可是没有钱，就是等死。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">然后就发生了把我气得半死的事情，我发现我一直以为自己拥有的我妈在五线城市老家给我买的保险是个分红型寿险，而且保额才5万，交了8年保费，每年几千块钱保费居然保额才5万！！！敲黑板！！！货币是有时间价值的！抗风险就一定要高杠杆！<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">这不是最生气的，更生气的是发现有个保额为1万块的重疾给付险！1万块！！！！现在1万块能解决什么问题！！！能看什么大病！！！<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">周末在家，公婆老公都在，我的情绪已经像吃剩菜一样默默消解了，我还是很拎得清的，以后还要大大的麻烦婆家照顾我，千万不要发脾气，毕竟生病是我自己的事情，谁也不亏欠我，不能让别人围着自己转。 <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">周日和姐妹在商场碰头美甲、配了新眼镜，五角场的假发店里尝试了所有自己想尝试的发型，后来惊奇发现一款短发非常适合我，一秒钟变成学生妹。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">心里没那么难过了，决定真的剃光头那天就来买这顶假发。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">晚上在雨中回家，有点伤感，没有带伞，真是大头在雨中无从依靠啊。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">想到父母心里更难过了，这几年我假装家里的顶梁柱陪爸爸度过了漫长的治疗期，也让家里的生活在五线城市有所保障，事无巨细安排他们生活的一切，让他们有安全感，感到老有所依，还承诺了这次放疗完我过年回去带他们出去玩，八十六岁的奶奶还等着明年五一来上海看我，而这一切，可能都无法兑现。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">这件事是至今为止我最受伤害的事情了吧。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">一直以来都是为了给父母好生活和体面养老而活着的贫民窟女孩，刚刚在上海安定下来，还什么都没有完成，就不能完成本来既定的使命了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: 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style="background-color: rgb(238, 237, 235);border-width: 1px;border-style: solid;border-color: rgb(238, 237, 235);background-size: 22px;background-position: center center;background-repeat: no-repeat;height: 180.031px !important;box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 378px !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">哪怕我只是个有意识的机器人，我也是《西部世界》里为了找到女儿留下来的梅芙，这条故事线是我生命的原生的驱动和内核。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">让父母接受这样处境的我，其实很难，话都说不出口，甚至还没开口情绪就要崩溃了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">不成。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">好在，我有中老年之友老公。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">胖胖的老唐，在视频里，一副有担当的样子，深入浅出（主要是避重就轻）讲了我的情况，表示会在上海好好照顾我，让我父母宽心。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我在他身后，隔着宽厚的脊背看到手机里父母小小的脸，感觉，再假装硬核，也有怂逼的时候。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">为了安置好父母的生活，掏出电脑做了下年度财务预算，规划了他们生活的支出，觉得自己可以负担，心里就踏实了一点。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">末的时候把该考虑的就医、工作交接、筹钱、家里交代都考虑清楚了，坐等下周一件件处理。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " 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BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">三、解决问题<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">10月22日早上正常起来上班，老唐还说一定要趁身体还好正常工作，给工作留个好的交代，不能因为生病了就撒手不管任何事了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">上班路上就收到医院电话通知住院。光速的在网上买了各种住院需要的秋衣秋裤、湿巾、一次性所有之类的东西。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">去医院路上下着雨，心里蛮焦躁的，虽然查了很多，但是不知道那些检查和治疗具体在身体上是什么感受。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">而且，事情还没做完，工作交接列表没有整理好，理赔资料没准备好，还有没搞懂补充医疗保险中的报销范围。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">硬着头皮，被老唐拎到病房，下午做了骨髓穿刺，完全没有任何心理准备，疼的我感觉是冷兵器时代被挫骨。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">然而怕老唐心疼也怕他骂我娇气（这是重点），硬是躺在床上捣手机发微信一声没吭云淡风轻挺过去了，被医生称赞了“淡定”很多次，后来知道别人做骨髓穿刺都是鬼哭狼嚎的。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-ratio="0.565" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="800" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrszG0nALQuM8aevFzL8yYAPbZl8jCxKy3s7ZVZia1sjibCjiahA5icX6X1g%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 471px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">住进去的时候，发现隔壁床奄奄一息实施抢救的小伙子，和我差一岁，同样的病症复发后现在已经很危险了。医生们怕我心态光速崩了就让我晚上回家。我看着他一个小伙子，腿瘦的和我的胳膊一样（我自己八十几斤，168哎），非常受触动。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">见整个病区的病人都是光头，我晚上去家附近的商场吃了40串烤牛肉串去把头发剪了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">那种感觉，就是——老子头发都能剪还有什么挺不住的事。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">周二一早五点多出发去医院，被提溜着抽了快20管血，人都飘了，坐在病房里，一直看着小伙子和围着的一大群人，不停的抢救，不停的输血，一波波大小便失禁和哭声。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我换上病号服坐在床上，闻得到桂花香味，还有三十厘米外失去意识的男孩子的味道。病房里其他人看我的眼神也是怜爱，毕竟我真的太年轻了，和这个快不行了的小伙子一样年轻。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我眼睁睁的看着旁边的小伙子拔管子，医生建议的放弃，连输血续命都没有任何意义，场面慌乱，一家人收拾东西准备回去，我才第一次意识到，原来我的最后也会失去意识、没有痛感、被插满管子又拔出来、只能发出呜呜的声音，身体瘦成皮包骨，被这样慌乱的医护人员和家人包围着呼喊着，在昏迷中走掉。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">文字没法描述这个场景。病房里所有人都哭了。我在错愕、恐慌、空白中，麻木的无意识的流泪。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">然后我就开始发烧，整个下午烧到下不来床湿透衣服。五人病房，男女混住，和我同样病症的都是老年男子，我也是非常尴尬，夜里睡不着，买了床上小桌子。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">晚上依旧烧的晕乎乎，独自一人在帘子后面感到窗口隐隐的风，梦里梦到隔壁床的人。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">微信让老唐第二天把我之前买的书带来。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">周三一早上五点就早早被护士拎起来测体温了，别的病人纷纷吃早饭，我早上吃不下干的东西，就叫了外卖，独自在楼前有好多棵桂花树的院子里转转，看着熙熙攘攘的门诊大楼。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">每一天每一个小时，都有无数的从外地赶来的看病的人，在中国最好的城市求一线活的希望，一整夜排队等一个专家号，全家挤在医院附近的小旅馆里，等了几天，见到专家，说两分钟话，企盼一点点希望和心安。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-ratio="0.7203125" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="640" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrEENsfZooBvPl0INpr2fTwwDibFiaBllCnCyvIXCQGOhyKiaLt4KsG62YQ%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 440px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">这个辛酸的过程太熟悉了，妈妈经历过，爸爸经历过，那些年在医院痛哭的日子，在五线城市卖掉家当去大城市全自费治疗救命和我放弃上学中选择的日子，家徒四壁无依无靠的日子，那些难到真的没有下一步的日子，都熬过来了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">回头看都觉得很难很难的日子，都挺过来了，现在的局面也没那么差。虽然只身一人在上海，可是熟悉的城市并不让我觉得自己是异乡人。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">上海是个多么让人充满希望的城市啊，那些在其他城市失去希望的人愿意举家路途颠簸来这里最后试一试，我有什么理由不珍惜这来之不易的求之不得的治疗机会呢。<p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-croporisrc="https://mmbiz.qpic.cn/mmbiz_jpg/kgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrCnQGG6Ch2XveOFWBMpA6ic9MlB9ZwcNuahuXQYtSw8VpnRvzU5jiatOw/0?wx_fmt=jpeg" data-cropx1="0" data-cropx2="403" data-cropy1="28" data-cropy2="261" data-ratio="0.575682382133995" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="403" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrGn6rC2SnDnaOysRFfOWfF0XBR2FxqicqWjYYrUAfEfGWwQtcNbBmZsw%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 403px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">回到病房吃了早饭，用刚送到的床上小书桌开始看书，下午要做PET-CT就开始禁食禁水了，中间还接待了来看望我的同事。 <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">小桌子解决了我的办公问题，掏出电脑高效的把工作交接表格整理好，所有工作文档归档整理好。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">下午三点多一个人溜溜达去另一个院区做PET-CT，所有人都有家属陪同，我自己找个角落坐了两个小时，发着热感觉要晕过去了，想要微信跟老唐抱怨的，想到他还在处理工作的事情就忍住了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">等了很久终于轮到我做了，躺在机器里思绪万千，幽闭感、失重感、头晕发热恶心种种袭来，半个小时的时间我就一直在回忆五年来和老唐的种种美好的回忆。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">保持着同一个姿势，伴着后腰骨髓穿刺后的疼痛，按照时间轴放PPT般回忆——<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">初识、<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">相辉堂前的一个个午后、<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">大学路上当卖烟少女、<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">肠胃炎没去期末考试、<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">一起回东北他在大雪中和我说不冷。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我就那样一直一直想，想明白了一个道理：少时欢爱总是要表尽真心言之凿凿，容不得日常琐碎鸡毛蒜皮，情爱总是热烈绝对分明；五年来一直觉得自己平生最爱已经黯然错失，老唐也只是人到中年凑个人过日子。彼此抱怨数落五年之后，在我人生低谷到可能不会爬起来的时候，两个中年人像家人一样一起面对，不离不弃，大概是另一种朴素的具体的爱吧。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">湿着眼眶带着辐射，走出检查室，在大楼里转啊转一直转不出去，好不容易回到门诊一楼已经站不住了，趴在台子上等老唐来找我，不知道等了多久，意识一直在告诉我不要晕过去，呼吸急促，发热到湿透，直到老唐走过来把我拎起来，像拎一只小猴子一样。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">回到病房，为了不让他担心，我强撑着吃了两份外卖，洗漱后让他早点回家，八点钟上床睡觉。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">担心他有没有到家，可以想象到他肯定慢慢地走出病房的楼门，停住脚，缓缓掏出烟点上一根，抽上几口再叼着烟捣着手机踱到停车场，想到这个场景就觉得自己一定要挺住，不要娇气哭鼻子，也不要矫情发脾气，哪怕是至亲至爱，也不能倾泻不必要的情绪。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-ratio="0.7905882352941176" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="425" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrIPbnMYh5Siciay593JjopflTbvyV8shmHbDHSaWLBt8XY7jgsD2ibEiaxw%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 425px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">戴着口罩发着烧根本睡不着，就微信上关心下父母，然后刷一些病友社区文章，了解下明天化疗可能的反应。然而周四开始化疗的反应和做输液港植入的痛苦是超出我心里预期的。 <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">周四中午被叫去手术室做输液港植入，就是在胸前埋个泵连接到心脏，每次输液只要戳破泵口一根针就可以了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">是个小手术，理论上正常人可以忍受的疼痛，然而有个bug是我长得太薄太瘦了！普通人厚实的胸膛埋个装置没啥，我薄的就像纸皮核桃一样，薄薄肌肤下几乎没有皮下脂肪，疼的我一直看自己的手术监控的机器，分分钟想起身走了，老子走了不做了还不行了么。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">半个月内做了两处活检缝了九针还没长好，又被缝了几针，内心的草泥马万马奔腾。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">依旧，靠盯着某处，在感受自己皮肉撕扯的同时，回忆和老唐去过的小店、站在路边聊天的夜晚过了如同一万年的半小时，被车推出去。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">婆婆来了，老唐提着我的粉色可爱小拖鞋问我感觉怎么样，我侧过头去回流了眼泪撒娇说“我跟你说疼，你肯定要讲我娇气”。突发的大姨妈更是放大了我的疼痛，平时还能吃布洛芬忍一忍，这次真是疼的我已经不知道身体哪里是哪里了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">回到病房等着打美罗华，由于每个人的反应不同，会先慢慢打100毫升看下过敏反应。我直接过敏了，一分钟滴5滴，直接烧的我意识模糊，全身湿透被子都盖不住了，打药要一直喝水一直上厕所代谢药物，我下个床风一吹直接冷战发抖到不能控制，全身痉挛般发抖，医生赶紧把药停了给我打激素。<p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-cropselx1="0" data-cropselx2="386" data-cropsely1="0" data-cropsely2="217" data-ratio="0.75" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="360" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24Frz37g3Ewq37E6Su959KlRic8EqjPwibDPE0zY9EiaYkgwxtBvkjv1QzFkg%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 270px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">隔一会我继续38.5度发热，抱着两个冰袋都止不住全身热得难受，老唐帮我脱了秋裤把汗晾干，昏睡过去，继续打美罗华，隔了一小会直接头皮寻麻疹，痒得我几乎把头皮抓破青筋暴起，已经半夜一点钟了，我是真的受不了了全身奇痒无比，再多一秒我都要自己拔针起身回家了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">没办法医生又停了药给我推了激素。我缓解了半小时好多了，老唐一直用酒精棉球帮我擦头皮给我止痒。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我看得出他吓坏了，也很累，我一边身体难过一边心里心疼他要死，心想这次老子一定要摒住打完，睡过去了就好了就不知道发烧不知道痒了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">就这样心理暗示着，我昏睡过去了，把第一只美罗华打完，7个小时。后面没再过敏（或者我不知道），第二支500毫升两小时打完，中途还叫护士调快一点，想让老唐早点回家休息。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">一直打到凌晨四点半，他帮我盖好被子，确认我没事了去车里睡了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我看着他走出门的背影，一句话说不出来，感觉张嘴就会哭出来，身体不适的委屈、心疼他的难过、各种百感交集。一遍遍深呼吸，暗示自己说：一定要摒住，不要放弃，不要让老唐担心。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">周五最后一天，我早早爬起来叫外卖，强打精神等老唐来找我，医生护士来查房，我表达了昨晚麻烦他们的歉意，也跟同病房的病人和家属表达不好意思，影响他们休息了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">看到老唐来了，憔悴的不得了，我咬咬牙心想，不管怎样今天都要打完出院回家。化疗药7袋打起来很快，副作用也很快，我的腿和脚浮肿的都穿不了裤子和鞋子了，头晕恶心像食物中毒的感觉。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">下午办出院收拾东西的时候，焦躁的两个人互相不爽，分分钟吵架说狠话。奈何我身体完全是别人的，想上去揍老唐一拳都胳膊动不了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">回到家，公公帮我烧了菜，我已经肿的坐不下去了，还是强迫自己吃了很多东西。发着热挺着洗澡换衣服收拾东西，上床躺了一会，直接吐成狗，失去时间感的头晕恶心，不停的吐，再昏睡。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">半夜每小时起来一次上厕所，小便都是红药水的颜色，一直到早上七点钟，才把腿上脚上的浮肿代谢掉。所以医生说得对，要疯狂的喝水，我喝水实在不够多，才浮肿成这样。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">周六早上，在公婆烧饭打扫的声音中半睡半醒起来，看到老唐叫我“小伙子，快起来吃早饭”的时候，我知道，自己第一次化疗终于结束了，老子挺过来了，真的是可以忍受的。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" 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break-word !important;visibility: visible !important;width: 677px !important;"><p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">四、要有中长期策略<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">化疗周期21天，其中2天住院，其他时间没有其他感染、白细胞过低的话，在家休息，每隔1天去医院验血常规，每天打升白针。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">也就是说，正式进入了不用上班在家待业生活的我，七点钟不用起床了，七点半到八点不用兵荒马乱的化妆吃早饭了，不用挤地铁了，不用九点到九点十分飞奔到办公室了，不用晚上十点地铁回家路上跟家里打电话了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">不用上班无事可做像陀螺失去了惯性，像不倒翁卡在了某处，像八音盒突然没电了，像故障的机器人没人修被放在了仓库。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">、<p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-cropselx1="0" data-cropselx2="386" data-cropsely1="0" data-cropsely2="217" data-ratio="0.6654545454545454" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="275" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrP9umeF4Lj0ysrOHq36XX7oYp9eO92nibZ41f8maCqfebTmKcjzW1mHg%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 386px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">对于一个焦虑型人格、一个工作狂、一个靠忙碌感觉活着、一个靠工作获得价值感的人来说，非常难熬、空荡荡。 <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">落差感是逐步袭来的，早上固定的时间醒了就睡不着了，想吃的陆家嘴外卖超出配送范围了，下午不和人一起叫奶茶了，九点半不用泡一壶茶了，晚上睡前不用烫第二天穿的衬衫了，一个个曾经规律的、固定的细节浮出来击中我。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">就这样过了五天，我瘦了十斤。这样不行啊，这样下去人不就完了吗，闲人的脑子是魔鬼的战场啊。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">要把自己Bring yourself back online。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">这是个自我修正、自我调整的过程，就算是个长期养病治疗的病人，最终目标也是回归正常生活，做个普通的自私的基因的携带者，而不是死亡的跟屁虫没有素质的一直插队。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">病友群里有很多人的生活给了我很大启发，他们有新疆的农民、山东的小开、福建的家庭主妇、上海的服装厂工人，他们拉着家常讲着自己每天的生活，吃了什么做了什么，在治疗的过程中也做个卖苹果、收水稻、伺候孙子上学的普通人。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">我也可以做这样的普通人啊。甚至选择更多。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">从前的人生一直按照父母的要求、老公的要求生活、跨专业跨行业、突破自己能力工作，一直辛苦又被动。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">现在不一样了，我有一大把时间可以做自己想做的事情，哪怕每天睡觉也是我自己可以选择的，也许我可以继续捡起来忘光了的法语，可以继续翻译中古英文诗，可以帮幼升小的家庭画PPT，可以做的事情太多了，只要我愿意。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">最重要的是，我可以整理过去的回忆，把想记录下来的写下来，留下一个数字化的我，这个digital image也许在以后可以像《黑镜》里一样还原一个我。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">虽然没有具体的有体系的做什么，但是我相信，只要我想，我还是有能力做一些事的，帮到自己，也可能帮到别人。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" 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break-word !important;visibility: visible !important;width: 677px !important;"><p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">五、人生而孤独，有些事要独自面对<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">生病之后，会有亲友问“感觉怎么样，身体哪里不舒服”。对于这个问题，我的回答是标准化的“常规的化疗副作用，可以忍受的病痛”。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">毕竟，无论是身体的感受，还是心里的感受，都是别人无法感同身受的，也很难共情的。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">很多病人痛苦的根源是：渴望别人的关注和不带同情的爱，渴望被完全的理解和安慰，渴望在人情冷暖中证明自己活着的不可替代的价值。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">正因为我知道这根源的恶果和对人造成的心理创伤，所以我很清醒的告诉自己：生病是我自己的事情，有核心的亲密关系必要的关心就好，不需要过多的嘘寒问暖，不对别人的冷暖太敏感，成为闲人的谈资也和我无关。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-ratio="1.005008347245409" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="599" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24Fr1DOHBqONDVSIoQL32SXAHEE9RHWaEpXvCUpibwOUIIj87yibZbmo6iaMA%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 352px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">有了这个心理建设，真的可以减少很多痛苦。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">很多人就是不愿意面对人生而孤独的局面，会在生病之后自怨自艾怨天怨地，把所有过往关系里的付出都当作亏欠去索取，看重别人不间断的关心和事无巨细的“围着转”，患得患失间一点小事就会心态崩盘，家人也跟着情绪受累，心里负疚。 <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">情绪黑洞的管理是所有癌症病人家庭都将面对的问题。但不会是我的。这部分是我该自己独自面对的，家人和朋友没有义务对此负责。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">病痛真的可以传达给别人么？<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">28岁的我，朋友、同学和同事都是健康的同龄人，我要告诉他们 ——<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">口腔黏膜脱落的感觉、<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">升白针骨骼疼痛、发烧脾虚的感觉、<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">浮肿膝盖剧痛的感觉、<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">手和脸失去知觉的感觉么？<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">心里经历的千军万马真的可以传达给别人么？不可复制的成长经历、较同龄人早熟的根源、早做安排的一切可以被人理解么？又为什么需要被理解、被体谅、被心疼？<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">人生的这部分痛苦，是终究要自己面对的。痛苦就像坐在对面同我谈判的人，我说什么、做什么、哭没哭、是不是软弱，他都完全看在眼里。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">喝了这杯冰啤酒，再来一轮吧。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-ratio="0.56" data-s="300,640" data-type="jpeg" data-w="300" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_jpg%2FkgzKbGj0eeIIicGcmmIh07uwVwElg24FrJjvuUCPoibydt1A19BWlP5Y0BLEB9naTFtq0B3fNQ90ZI7OkXBEqdbA%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Djpeg" style="box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;width: 300px !important;visibility: visible !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">如果自己能想不通这个道理，自然是无法消解这份痛苦的，人生的每一局都会在对面出现自我的魔障，更别说和解。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">于我而言，两个星期以来，一直有条不紊的有事要去做，有具体的东西要执行，都还没有个崩溃大哭的机会，每次难过，五分钟浅尝辄止的泪水还没干就有新的问题需要决策和解决。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">也许是自我保护机制支撑我度过这两个星期。也许这个机制会在以后的时间里溃败坍塌，然后脆弱泛滥，人格硬撑不下去。可是那又怎么样呢。这条故事线的这个节点，也许就是这样的。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">但是在此之前，我很骄傲自己在过去的两个星期里没有崩溃，而是理智的把事情推进到现在，一切都在计划中。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">说起来大言不惭，这大概就是一个女人为了爱能做到的最硬核了吧。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">下图为完整版的自救指南，囊括了这两周所有的心路历程和决策机制，也许具体而无用，但是哪怕遇到一个觉得它有用的人，我想对你说：<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">不要慌，<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">不要怕，<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">有个倒霉鬼和你一样。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""><img class="" data-copyright="0" data-ratio="0.46359447004608295" data-s="300,640" data-type="png" data-w="1085" src="https://lymx.com.cn/source/plugin/csdn123_news/display_picture.php?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmmbiz.qpic.cn%2Fmmbiz_png%2F1XeLx65nHKoaCOHyR1zdvJDcYF4yy2D778rxl0gib1LGIjTZc4XmNo8MStfAE5LnWLBTdQnuc4OxT3U6DXKTtkQ%2F640%3Fwx_fmt%3Dpng" style="border-width: 0px;border-style: initial;border-color: initial;box-sizing: border-box !important;word-wrap: break-word !important;visibility: visible !important;width: 677px !important;"><p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);text-align:="" center;line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">-The End- <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">编者后记：<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">她其实很不想提笔写自己的事情，可是这两天一直刷到朋友圈的垃圾鸡汤，什么［扛过人生艰难，靠的是不着急，不害怕，不要脸］，感到对她人生遇到的真正艰难来说，太不具体，太无用了。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">于是她这才把自己从体检开始的故事写成了长文，并且总结成了经验和思维导图发在她的公众号（一只柱柱柱柱子哥）上。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">如果这个国家，这个城市，有和她一样患有亚型非霍奇金淋巴瘤、已经骨髓侵犯累及脏器、伴有其他免疫力缺陷疾病的人，在遇到这样的人生艰难时，有份具体的东西可以看，不要慌，不要怕，那这份指南就帮到了人。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">哪怕在魔都只有一个这样的同病相怜的人，你要知道，你不是一个人。<p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"=""> <p style="margin-right: 8px;margin-left: 8px;max-width: 100%;min-height: 1em;color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, " helvetica="" neue",="" "pingfang="" sc",="" "hiragino="" sans="" gb",="" "microsoft="" yahei="" ui",="" yahei",="" arial,="" sans-serif;font-size:="" 17px;letter-spacing:="" 0.544px;text-align:="" justify;white-space:="" normal;background-color:="" rgb(255,="" 255,="" 255);line-height:="" 1.75em;box-sizing:="" border-box="" !important;word-wrap:="" break-word="" !important;"="">欢迎有类似经历的人关注她。

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明心阁's Archiver

从陆家嘴到中山医院的路其实没多长！